Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Feelings shape our reality

As you can probably guess from the headline, I believe in the Law of Attraction and that what we think and feel shape our reality. And I've come to believe feelings - which actually I've never put a lot of stock into as I'm a more intellectual person than feeling - shape reality stronger than thoughts.

I don't really get depressed. But lately I've been going thru what I would classify as a slump, what others might call depression. I've been sabotaging myself professional and personally and no matter how much I've meditated and tried to think my way out of it, I realize my underlying feelings have been dragging me deeper. I feel poor - so my sales have slumped and I've screwed up several orders I shouldn't have for no reason other than forgetting to do something I should have. I've felt stupid (even though I've told myself I'm not stupid, I've just done a few stupid things). I've felt defeated and stuck and though telling myself I'll get out of it since I always do, I haven't been able to shake the feeling so the problem has persisted.

But...realizing it and acknowledging it is the first step to recovery, right? So I've made the first step today and will continue to work on it. I need to be out of the office today to help my father for a bit, so instead of looking at it as an interruption keeping me from getting done, I'll look at it as a chance to reflect on my feelings and start to change them.

What is making me feel poor - fix it! What is making me feel stupid - correct it! I know I can do it....now I have to feel that I can.